transparency…

Inspiration comes in many forms. One can be inspired by reading, by music, by language… anything really.
I’ve been inspired to try and blog more often, and not always about my latest e-session, wedding or fine art photograph.

My inspiration has come from my late friend, Julie (see my previous post) and how she handled her blog.
There was so much transparency… and I feel that is missing from my blog.

To be honest, I am a very private person. And while I can be outgoing and the center of attention, I usually prefer to
hide, to be quite and reserved. I worry too much about what others might think of me.

And while it really is unimportant if I remain hidden or if I attempt to be more transparent, I personally need to be.
I need to get my thoughts and feelings out ‘there’, I need to be who I am - regardless what others may think.

So to start, here’s a little conversation my wife and I had last night.

Me: Hey Love…? (that’s our nickname to each other) If we didn’t have ANY bills or debt of any kind, and if the kids were all grown up or at least, being taken care of by someone… what would you do? What would you want to do - or learn - or accomplish? I mean, if we had the time and money… what would you want out of life?
Her: … … … … um, I don’t know. I’m a mother of six and I don’t have time to even think of this stuff… … … I don’t know. You?
Me: First, I want to have our house on at least 50 acres and sit on the porch with you while we watch our kids explore the world around them. Then, I want to learn the guitar, learn to paint, sculpt, work with metal and stained glass, learn woodworking… basically I want to be free to work with my hands and create beautiful things.
Her: Yeah, that would be nice….

And we just smiled at each other.